Nearly 3 months...

Big Cold, Little boy

We are starting day 4 of a nasty cold. Jacob has had crazy sleep patterns the past few nights because of this.  Of course, the night he slept the most he was with my mom and dad. Last night we were at Danny's parents house out of town and his longest stretch of sleep was from 11:30-2:30. Otherwise he kept couching and crying. It's breaking my heart that I can't make him better.  It's tough on us that we aren't sleeping either. I'm totally frustrated and just want to hold him all day and remind him that mommy loves him and it will all be okay. Well maybe that's more of a reminder to myself than any thing.  Last night in my half asleep ramblings to my husband I told him no more kids. Or we have to hire a nanny who nurses during the night.  Ha! He must think motherhood has made me even crazier.  But really,  all this lack of sleep has turned me into a filterless mama. Watch out world! 

He's Here!

Here we go!
I decided it would be good for me to record some things about being a new mom. We have had quite a ride the past seven weeks!
Danny and I welcomed Jacob Henry into the world at 1:16am on June 14th. I'll share that whole story another time.
We have realized that, really, our lives will never be the same. Our total independence has gone out the window for the time being. Our spur of the moment lifestyle is pretty much gone, and romance...what's that?!
In the past seven weeks we have done some pretty great things. Jacob survived FOUR tornado warnings since being born, one of which was in the hospital. We had to sit in the bathroom of our hospital room for about half an hour, which was half an hour too long! When he was one week old we braved the crazy heat and walked in Relay for Life in honor of my mom. He has nursed in restaurants, the Target dressing room, a used car lot, several family member's homes, and a few other parking lots. We have traveled up to two hours away. AND Jacob and I survived TEN days without Danny. That, I think, is our greatest accomplishment so far. Those were the longest ten days. I'm still extremely tired... not to mention now that Danny's home he's developed a bad cold and I'm not taking care of two, instead of one.
All in all, being a mom has been wonderful. I've seen him grow out of those tiny newborn clothes and diapers into these GIANT 3 month clothes and size one diapers. (He isn't going to grow out of these is he!?) I've seen him learn to smile and giggle. At 13 days he started rolling over, and hasn't stopped. I've watched him try to figure out his little fingers. I've listened to him cry for hours, for no reason at all. I had no idea I could love so much, and so quick. He's wrapped me around his finger. I also didn't know I could love my husband any more either. The more I see him with Jacob the more I fall in love with him over and over again. My heart is so full. There have been challenges, and fights and tears, but I know it's all worth it.